Wired Differently

Side Effects

Side Effects

Side effect of mental illnesses
We are fully aware of the up and down of the rollercoaster, the darkness and how shy the light can be to come into our lives. 
The outburst that damages us, our relationship and hurt our loved ones. But usually mental illness never comes alone, because beside
affecting our surrounding, it also affects our brains which then our body reacts to it.
So let's bring those pieces to the table. First one that comes to mind is memory, seem like to survive, our brain sacrificed at time our short...


Dear Anxiety - Clayton Jennings

Dear Anxiety - Clayton Jennings

I wake up, puddle of sweat
I have nightmares when I get back into bed
It's like these voices just keep playing on repeat
In the back of my head
And I can't get them to leave me alone
30 years old but still hates being alone when I'm home
Because that's when the voices get the loudest
Opening up like this is a moment far from my proudest
But these demons keep pressing me
I swear they're the foulest
But I've grown comfortable with their presence
My conscious is calloused...


Monsters

Monsters

Monsters
We signed up to fight evil monsters and to keep them away from our loved ones and to protect those who need protecting but over the course of our careers we have become those monsters . We have learned why they are monsters and in order to fight them we have adopted some of their characteristics. We had to…….for survival.
We learn to cage that monster only to be brought out when needed . Most of time it just sits inside us . This is the hard part ..
This is the struggle a lot...


PLEASE DONT KILL YOURSELF

PLEASE DONT KILL YOURSELF

Please, don't kill yourself

I'm talking to you
And I don't pretend to know everything that you've been through
But if it's shame you feel, just know that I've sinned too
And if it's pain you're feeling
Just know that that's something I went through
I don't know your story, but I know you and me are a lot alike
So let me talk to you for a minute while I've got this mic
I was 18 when I pulled a gun out
At...


ARE YOU ONE OF THOSE?

ARE YOU ONE OF THOSE?

ARE YOU ONE OF THOSE? 

 

For the longest time, I was showed a way to follow and that being different was not ok. 

I was made to believe that if I was not following the group due to what ever reason I would never end up alone. If you are like me, you did face loneliness. Is it wrong? At that time, I beat myself, I hated to not think the same way that others did. Because I was not talking like others, not processing the same way, not wanting the same things…  I was different, and...